Neither. I’d never initiate a conversation but when someone starts talking to me I can usually hold my ground. Idk, my social skills have improved tremendously over the past year or so, but I still don’t feel the need to talktalktalk to most people or all the time. Silence is underrated.
And mhm, no, being socially awkward isn’t necessarily bad, but unfortunately the way our society functions requires regular contact with fellow human beings so it might be a good thing if you can find a way to somehow make your awkwardness work in social situations.